Well everything

So I have to apologise for such a long break I guess the last time I left this blog I went to Malaysia for spring break and then I've just been getting back in to the motion of things. I feel so stressed all the time with homework and everything but my vacation was fun, I went to the beach called Redang and I got burnt to a crisp. Just a few days ago I went on a french trip to eat food and prom is coming soon and there was this awkward moment with a guy... well actually it was quite funny and then I went to Jems 17th bday party and we played childhood games and stuff.

really busy talk to you guys later

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life update

hi guys, I realised I wrote the rap wrong this is it:
this is far-g
and jem k t
we walking down da pavement at 5:03
we seem dem teachers sitting up on a tree
k-i-s-s-i-n-g
there aint no fee for being cool like me
hey stef!
heyooooo
hey stef!
heyoooo
I said uh, I said uh stef!
heyoooo
do you want to eat my cheese and my m****f**** peas

haha so Ive been reading My cousin Rachel and I'm starting to really like it... I think I need to start distancing myself from full on classics and try reading some new stuff, I think plays or maybe non-fiction could be interesting. I dont know, next for me I thinit'll be god of small things.

Yesterday we had a 15 hour powercut... and Ney York thought they had it bad :( that and the electricity keeps fluctuating so it's very frustrating. I really want to watch the movie north sout because my friend and sister said it's amazing. Talking about movies, during the break before English we watched paperman and it was so sweet, I know that that could never happen but Disney has been a bit bad in what they've been producing, compared to back then with llittle mermaid and everything now we get food boy nd dad napped... don't even ask. I was happy to see this and tangled come out. I'm not a disney person but when it comes to their movies I expect a lot. 

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great day rapping away

so today was a very interesting day, my friend and I made a rap while going to get lunch. Here's our amazing lyrics:
I'm far-g and I'm with JT,
walking along the pavement without AC <-- made that last bit up cause it rhymes,
we see some teacher sitting in a tree,
K-I-S-S-I-N-G,
there ain't no fee to be cool like me,
cause it's free to have swaggerrrr
I'll feed you my cheese but not my peas

It was just a bit of fun this was just before TOK, after going to the canteen again. It was funny because Aurora was waiting with me at Hers, a Korean restaurant, then I look back and she was gone. So I went to eat at the lockers with Hye Lin and Aurora came and thought I had left :P
Our TOK discussion was so deep about religion and the stuff going on in Burma and other countries but I don't really want to write that seeing as I don't feel safe, hopefully after I'll give you some of my opinions and talk about that stuff, I also have not experienced any of it really yet but I kind of have just not right in my face. I guess if you want I could blog about it next so be sure to check in for that. After TOK I just went to rehearsal for animal farm and then went to watch mini league. It was between Ji eun's team and the guards and I put turf in Stifella's afro :D it was buried in there :)

Hope everyone is having a lovely day, this CAS stuff is very frustrating so I'll go do that and learn my lines for Animal Farm. While I do that make sure to check out my blog at mymakeuplife.blogspot.com 

I'm ill

My friends came back from SEASAC softball and they cam third place and I'm so proud of them :) so if you haven't guessed from the title I'm feeling a bit under the weather I'm not sure but I think there's a bug going around because all of my friends are ill too. I've had this really bad headache but it's taught me something... I love honey lemon tea. I've been so stressed due to the predicted IB grades because my school apparently predict really low due to the students mainly applying to the US and no longer caring about their IB scores. There's even a name for it... senioritis, it sound like a disease! well I'm defintely not going to get it I want to do the best I can, Sorry for the short post but that's all I have I think I need to sleep.

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maths IB and pencil cases

So yesterday I went and brought a ton of pens. I'm not sure why but it makes me really happy when I get stationary and I'm organised. I also brought some pencils and I got  my ti-84 from America which is exciting for maths studies ;) I sound like a nerd but yeah. What I get really annoyed about is people considering maths studies stupid... I mean it's still and IB course and you do a lot of what the SL does. Doing HL maths isn't anymore difficult than studies it just depends on the person because it might be the same amount of difficulty for someone to understand than Maths HL is for another. Obviously if you can cope with HL and are doing studies that's another thing but I don't think it's right to make fun of people for doing studies if they're finding it just as difficult then you when you're doing HL. Think of it in terms of singing, if a good singer is trying to sing opera that's like HL maths but if a person who is completely tone deaf and is struggling to sing normally isn't it just as hard? I think we need to be a bit more considerate of people because what may be difficult in other subjects may be really difficult for you and vice versa. These levels they put us in in school is similar because you are only considered 'smart' if you're in set 1 and the people in set 5 are seen as slackers but what if they're trying just as hard as you? these sets also don't show everyone potential, as I said before the material we're doing in studies is the same as SL, in fact I took there quiz and I got higher than a lot of them...even in GCSE's I was predicted C's and came out with A*'s you just need to quit judging from the past and give everyone a chance because they'll most likely surprise you.

Family problems? - my take

I'm writing this in general and won't include people because it's their choice if they want it public or not. I'm not someone who has a dysfunctional family but I think every family has problems and bound to have a fight with at least one member. I'm not going to talk about me personally, I'm just going to talk about the topic and everything. I guess my school friends will say they have problems and then you look at yours and it causes you to analyse it...I guess I've been doing that a lot lately. Instead, I think we should learn to appreciate what we have and if you have decent parents you need to realise this, if you have non-decent parents I can't really say too much. It's quite complicated blogging about personal things, especially family because, at least in my community, it is seen as inappropriate because it's not as though I have bad parents so people just don't really need to know about personal stuff and it's just not done gossip will spread for stupid reasons when nothing that bad happen..bangla problems. However, it can be good to tell your troubles to trusted friends. If you guys don't know I have a twin sister and it can get really difficult sometimes, sometimes I wish she was literally my older sister because I think it would be a lot easier. That way I wouldn't have to be compared to her by friends because she's my twin so we must be the same right? we must be equally smart right? jeez it gets really frustrating sometimes, usually I don't care, but everyone gets tired after a bit, if she was older we could at least have something different.I'll admit we get into disputes but then we also enjoy each others company on other days, it can be bad but it can also be fun. As a whole, these are small problems because we are teenagers and it's really small compared to others and in a few years when were apart we may even miss each other :O I think one of the main reasons for our debacles is that we're so used to being together always, we're kind of scared of going to uni and doing things alone but I think it'll be okay, I just need to face life. I'm getting really excited for university because I can be more my own person and don't have to be compared or judged (even though I don't care but I'm really tired of it) and of course learn something that I'm passionate about rather than mathematics (cringe!)

meeting Ian Wright and approaching people

So I'm not sure if... I take that back most likely none of you know that my mum works in media and today Ian Wright the presenter from Globe trekker was in her office he's shooting something for discovery channel but don't ask me because I have no clue. It was really cool because he's one of the main reasons my mum gets ideas to go on holiday in random (not random but not the typical tourist destinations) countries. The main reason I went there was to introduce myself to the man who is head of the production team and the director because I want to study journalism or english that kind of thing. I'm actually quite interested in a lot of topics my makeup blog is just one interest because I enjoy using it and in this busy IB year I think it's a good way to be productive but have fun. I actually thought of doing a current affairs blog but I may start that in uni and when Im in a different country because Im not sure how it would fair and also Im not a person who has correspondents or anything. Maybe on this blog I might write my opinions on some issues but I think it's good as a diary as well. The main reason why I'm blogging today is because I had to introduce myself to a man who is really good at his career in order to build connections. I WAS TERRIFIED. That and the fact that I didn't want to seem cocky or weird. My top tip would just be as polite as possible and not to expect anything. Ok I have to go eat.

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funfair

Hi everyone so yesterday we had a funfaiir and I sang... I was so nervous and it's so odd when you go on stage and then you can't hear yourself and you can't see the audience because of the lights. It was fun there was a Ferris wheel with guys literally climbing to the top and dragging it down. Then my friend stef sang and wow she was amazing! Right now I'm sitting in my room bored to life with these two harry potter obsessed girls... and I thought I was obsessed a few years ago, they take things to a new height.

Random point: I HAVE A CAT!! it's so cute and I want to hug it all the time!

I've brought, well actually my mum brought, a prom dress!! and I have great heels from zara to go with it, I think when it gets nearer the time I'll blog about it on my beauty blog you can check it out a : http://mymakeuplife.blogspot.com/

Mistakes and regret

When you're a teenager you think you can mess up whenever you want right? WRONG! lets just say I screwed up on Friday and I made the most irrational decisions... if you're one of those people that are thinking that because you're asian you're type casted and you want to be wild for a bit, trust me, there is a limit you can go. Let's just say you crossed that limit...you are going to regret it, especially if you live in asia, in particular if you live in Myanmar. This place is so weird because they gossip so much and if you mess up your reputation is down the drain. Therefore, I've learnt my lesson and will never ever ever be associated with that stuff, I just don't want to ruin my reputation on such an easy thing that you can avoid. Lets just say I regret that decision and it won't happen again because I love my family and I don't want to be that kid that defies her parents or doesn't tell them where she's going ( I was supposed to go to a bengali party but I didn't want to instead I went out with my friends). I think moving here I'm having a slight identity crisis.. don't worry I know who I am though and am going to be myself again ASAP because I don't like who I am currently I think I need to focus on blogging, school and work experience. In the end I don't want to grow up with regret I want to be someone who thinks: oh I messed up that one time but I'm proud of myself as I saw it was wrong and decided to make a change.

Going on to a less serious topic, today was my mums CEO's daughters graduation/birthday party. They were doing kareoke and my mum nominated me so I sang Ed Sheerans lego house ( I sang a cover for my gran on youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wnCiWWrOnE). It was really scary even though it was casual. I'm not used to singing on mike so it was different and I think the adrenaline kicked in because I felt really shaky after it and I still don't remember it (I remember singing it but I don't... get it?) it was good practice I guess for funfair, because you have a lot of control but when you get up there it's a whole different experience because in a way you can't really hear yourself. I think it's best if you just try to talk in to the mike to gage how loud you need to sing and then just think of calm thoughts and the lyrics.

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hair,love and loneliness

Hi everyone :) so today I went to a friends to finish making the orders of chocolates for sounds and steps. The main thing I wanted to say is that I dyed my hair on wednesday and this is how it looks like, well the picture describes it but I basically wanted Ombre with pink but my colour pigment is too strong so it looks more red. I'll blog more about it on my other blog: http://mymakeuplife.blogspot.com/ but yeah I really like it. In my opinion, I'm only a teenager once and seeing as when I'm older Ill most likely never have this choice again I fugured it was best to do now.

If you havn't read the title then you should because now I'm just going to talk about valentines day and what it means to me. Now I don't know if you don't already know this but I'm not the most attractive person in the planet you know (I know shocker right??) so I think this holiday is a time of weirdness. For people like me you just feel like you're forever alone. Then your friends are all like: don't think about that, your a catch it's just the dudes...hahaha NO it's just never going to happen and I'm slowly getting used to the fact. I swear because I'm indian/asian or something that boys think I'm too conservative or something like most asians who don't dress provocatively don't want a relationship or will act all weird ( obviously I don't want to dress that way but a little interest would be nice (; ).  Newsflash! most of us live in the 21st century and are just like normal people! jeez it just frustrates me.

I just find the whole love thing quite comical in that theres so much guessing and thought that goes around it... why can't it be easier! Anyways next week we have a school dance and its based on traffic lights and green means your single, yellow complicated and red taken. Now tell me something, how does anyone find a green dress in Myanmar? please tell me because I've tried and the only one I've found will make me look like an obese hooker so I think I'll pass. Why do we always think about the menial things in life... then again it wouldn't be life without it :)

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Half day!

So today was a half day so we were released at 11am! I feel really tired right now so Im  going to keep this post short. So after school I went to Blue oasis with Phyu Myat, May, Jem and Aurora. The food took a really long time to come but it was still really good. I have to go finish my IOP presentation but I'm too addicted to the internet.

going to sleep!

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Jems and the literary festival

So today I went to Jems house to watch movies and hang out. It just brought back old memories because we watch she's the man as well as Bridget Jones's Diary which was absolutely hilarious! Jem and I kept repeating the part where Amanda Bynes gets her friends to act like they like her as her brother and the part where she's hit in the crotch and has to fake the pain (men know what I mean). It was just super funny! Bridgit Jones was absolutely amazing, I loved the ending where she runs out in underwear in the freezing snow to catch Darcy, that girl really has guts.

After that Jems we went to the festival to see Vikram Seth speak with Akash Kapur. Now I'm not going to go into detail because I did last blog but the way he speaks is simply amazing and gosh if I ever get the chance again sign me up! At the very end a few people went to the front to get his autograph and I was unsure as to whether I should or not because they all had his books to sign, also they were a lot older than me. So due to the next speaker needing to take the floor we went to the exhibition hall and he started signing everyone. Nick Danziger was also there and he took a picture of this! so maybe I'm in one of them! (I think that's cool because in my head it feels as though I'm remembered in a small way). After that Ms Jung Chang spoke and I got her autograph too!

Great day today and I had so much fun, now I have to ruin it and do homework and CAS journals :(

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Irrawady literary festival

so today I went to a literary festival which had a lot of burmese and foreign writers participating. The main thing was that Daw Aung san suu kyi was there! and I shook her hand, it was amazing. there where really cool writers such as Vikram Seth and William Dalrymple there. It first started off with a photojournalism talk with Nick Danziger and Thierry Falise and how they got into the business and what they did to get to the place they are now. The british man (Danziger) was definitely one of the best people I saw that day because his presentation was engaging. For example, he was talking about his journey through the silk trade route and the russian fires that planes would give off when he was in the soviet territory.

Some of his stories were really gruesome and really touching, such as the one about this girl who had lost her arms and how she wished to be married but can't see that future anymore because of those men who ripped her hands from her. That and the story about a girl who sold herself for 1 dollar to get a notepad for school and then finding out she's HIV positive almost brought me to tears. The way he phrased the stories just really shook me because we live such a sheltered life and we think of 1 dollar as nothing but when a girl sells her own body just for that, you have to think: surely we as people are worth more. In the sense that we're human beings and to see that our society still hasn't changed and may have even deteriorated to a certain extent is horrible. What kind of men buy a girl for 1 dollar and refuse to wear a condom. Why doesn't humanity scream at them to just help the girl instead? these stories always confuse me because I always think humanity is taking 1 step forward on one side and a step back on the other. Why bother when we just stay in the same place all the time?

Another person I really liked was this lady who wrote a travel book about travelling on the Indian railway system for 40,000 Km...that's pretty cool and for anyone to do it they must have guts because I would be terrified to do that, especially by myself. So I thought that was cool, also how she spoke because she was talking about how verbs brought her back and how she could experience the atmosphere etc. by using the correct verbs and diction.

The Orwell talk was very interesting because they were talking about politics and fascism, imperialism and socialism and speaking about how Myanmar can move forward. Now, I'm not very into politics but I did like how Mr Timothy Garton-Ash was talking about how we view the word Burma and the word Myanmar and how we (most of us) connotes good feelings with the word Burma so that's why a lot of people use it. Overall, I just thought his passion about Orwell was fascinating.

Then of course Daw Aung san suu kyi with William Dalrymple, Vikram Seth, Fergal Keane and Jung Chang were really interesting. They had a panel at the very end where they were talking about which book or more likely poems they would keep if they were stranded on a desert island. I especially like Mr Seth when he was analysing some poems because I could truly see that he was passionate about it. In general it was really funny and Ms Jung Chang was so funny when she spoke about sneaking into a pub and feeling underwhelmed because she expected it to be an inapropriate place (she was under Mao's rule through China at the time) and for an IB history student I was able to connect a lot more. Daw Aung san suu kyi had spoken earlier and she even came outside to greet the excess amount of people and I was right there! but going back to topic I just really liked the way she spoke and how beautiful her spirit is. She was just funny and just really inspiring and I loved how even after all she had gone through she was making jokes and stating how Harry Potter must have had a harder life. I still remember her saying she got let out too early from house arrest because she couldn't finish her book! trust me, she was funny.

There were so many amazing authors writing about them would take forever and I'm going again tomorrow but I just thought I would give you the highlights. I also really enjoyed Rory Maclean, Akash Kapur and this burmese author called Pasal (sorry I can't remember his whole name because it's not written on the schedule). Not to mention when Daw Aung san suu kyi was leaving and got in to her car she shook my hand! <-- highlight of my life and in that moment I realised that it was probably going to be one of the biggest things that ever happened to me so for that this day has been definitely one of the best.

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daily life blogging

so today I had to do my IOP for english (I take IB) and I had a full on out panic attack because my name was called out first and I guess I just felt overwhelmed by the pressure because it would most definitely determine my future. But the main reason Im writing this post is because Ive finally found real friendship sinse Nurlyana left. I mean I had Ashley and Astrea, but no one as close as I was with noodles. So when I was having my panic attack one look at me and my friends started volunteering to take my place... and I just can't believe they would do that for me. Now I'm still not completely sold with ISY in terms of education and all that, but the people are amazing. Well at least in my grade, we have no cliques and they're just generally so nice I feel so fortunate for moving and meeting them. Alice smith was cool with all the class rooms and gadgets, but the people? honestly so many of us have left and there were so many divisions and I coudnt find that close group of friends that would wait for me at my locker or would just want to hangout (I sound like a loner but seriously I wasn't it's just not the culture to go to each others houses and stuff) and also the fact that I couldn't properly connect with some people... I think I was just missing my old friends and didn't like he people changing so much I stopped wanting to connect with people (to the point where we got really close) because I always thought they'd leave... I know DEEP right? anywaz I'm just happy for the change and it's nice to know that no ones leaving for now and that they have my backs... seriously no one in alice smith would do that for me from what I remember even my friends (I'm not including older friends I mean the friends I had like last year) then again I've never been in that situation with them so who am I to know whether they would or whether they wouldn't. So on an ending note I would just like to say how grateful I am and how much I love my friends.

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